Girl on the move

Aright, its time to start this back up....

As the time here gets longer
I am no longer as scared
As the more time I venture out
I see that this new place is just like my previous one

Although I am nervous
I know that everything is going to be ok
Because when all is said and done
I have the family I always wanted

My father and sisters might not be with me
But I know they have my back on this
They supported my decision to move with my boyfriend long ago
They supported it in the end with tears in their eyes

As the days counted down to moving day
Laughter filled the air
Until it was time to say "See you later"
The tears started flowing
I didn't want to let go

On that Tuesday night
I let go of my father

Thankfully we had to go in the same driving direction
That's where I stayed right behind him as long as I could
That's when it hit me that I might not see him again
That's when I burst into tears but kept right on driving

As the night continued
My boyfriend didn't have to remind me why I chose this path with him
He reminds me everyday in the littlest of ways

So as I take these new steps here way down south
I know everything is going to be ok

I have the love of a lifetime with me

A love that holds me tight
A love that lifts me up when I am weak
A love that is perfect for me

I don't mind waiting to see what the future holds for us
Because I know it will be great
Since we are great together
We are a team









 

New beginnings

After going through a tough time this past year
After deciding to let go
And trying to figure out what I want
I'm where I am meant to be

I am happy
No regrets

I couldn't trust people for a while
I know posting on this blog might open up that door again where someone was texting anonymously and stalking me
But I don't care

The only thing you guys need to know is that I made the right decision
I found a man
Not a mamma's boy
I found a true gentleman
He has that wild country side I always wanted
Along with many years in our US Navy

We hold nothing back
We talk about things people say we shouldn't

He has seen sides of me I tried to hide
But with this new beginning I laid everything out on the table
And he accepts me more then anyone ever has

My family loves him
My dad and him have so much in common
I know it might sound weird how I relate him to my Dad
But my Dad is my rock
He never left me, he gets me and I could hang out with him any day
I think its cool
Maybe that's what I needed all along

Even though he is like my dad in soo many ways
he is also soo much more
I never expected to feel loved by someone again
But I do
He doesn't need to say it because he shows it every single day

Its funny
We haven't even been out to a movie yet and its been 3 months and we barely go out out
We talk soo much
Even when we don't have much to say
Its ok
because when you are dating someone you don't have to constantly be yackin yackin
Its the feeling of being right next to them and feeling content

I wish the road I traveled didn't have to be so rough
But I know it had to be that way
Im happy and I shouldn't be sorry for it
I see a brighter future
I know when the storm comes there will be a rainbow at the end of it
We can get through anything

I hope everyone out there in blog world is doing well

Always follow your heart
Move on from the past
Not all loves are meant to last

Be hopeful and never loose your smile
:D

Have a good night
 

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As long as you're true to yourself that's all that matters.

When you meet someone for the very first time is it possible to know whether or not days of tomorrow exist with them? Is it possible to know that there is something there with out needing time to really know it? It seems like time isn't a waist, it just helps us understand things or actually believe things are true. Its seems to me like time is only a test. We can pretend all we want, but its time that eventually catches up. Some day lies will catch up and the time wasted on telling those lies will catch up to. No one can tell a lie forever.

So what happens when you like someone a lot sooner then you expected? If emotions develop over months or maybe years, does that mean they really do exist? Who's to say that the weren't real from the beginning?

Now and days there seems to be a certain way of doing things. There seems to be a schedule or a list of things to do before getting to the final step. First you do this, then you do that and eventually you will get to the grand finally. Most people say that's how it should be. Don't rush over the steps to soon or to quick.

When do you really now whats right? People all around are skipping steps, following them and rearranging them. Sometimes even without thinking. Sometimes the end result sucks. Sometimes the end result is more then just the end, its a new beginning for two people. So who's to say what to do and what steps to follow?

As long as you're true to yourself that's all that matters.

In life is it all about finding another human being with the exact secret code as you? Were not all a mystery and were not the same. We are complicated creatures with instincts, flaws and curiosity for the world. Each one of us has a rare and unique way of doing things and eventually there will be someone who just gets it. Someone that doesn't judge us for the weird things we do or say. Someone who laughs at us for the funny or stupid things we say and they continue to like us the same. Someone who doesn't just want to be with us when life is extremely great or easy. Someone who wants to be the person we run to when we are scared, confused or upset. Someone who just wants to be with us. Someone who would be just as lost with out us as we would be with them. They just get us. Isn't that cool or what?

So how do we figure out the secret code you say? Its all about following the rhythm to our own soul. We shouldn't pretend to be anything more or less then what we are.

Through time there is hurt, Through time there are memories. Through time there is more possibilities. There are lessons learned, nights we wish we could take back. There is a opportunity to not give up. To keep living, laughing and loving each new day we get. Mistakes are worth it if we learn from them. Through time we will see that we are what we are. We have all tried to be someone else at one point or another. Later on we look back and say "What was I thinking?" HaHa

So when do you really know? The answer might be right in front of you. You will never know until you give time a chance. Time is more important then we think. You will never know until you either take a chance on it because that thing could be the best thing that's ever happened to you.

So don't give up! Keep going! Keep laughing! Keep being your crazy, unique self! Never loose confidence!

Remember time got you to this point.

Its all for a reason.

Don't mess it up.

:D

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