This is for all the young teens out there who just want someone to love them.
I'm sorry its so long, I get into examples, then details then... well you will see if you keep reading LOL
What is up with all these young girls dating. Yes I'm not perfect, I started dating when I was 12. And I wish I could change that. I grew up faster and every time a boy was nice to me, I thought they wanted to date me. So my mind focused on that and nothing else. Which is bad because I could have made some pretty good friends, but that didn't happen. Most of them turned into ex's I never talked to again, some friendship.
Yeah the holding hands thing was cute and fun. My 1st boy friend gave me a huge bunny rabbit for my birthday and he even gave me a valentines day card, in which he re-gifted. It was for him, from his mother. But i didn't care. I was young and to have a boy look at me was like "wow" but now I would rather have boys see me for who I am inside. I have a mind and I know not to waist it on boys that don't care to take the time to see it.
Lately I have been seeing an issue, which involves young teens and young girls. These girls wear their hearts on their sleeve each and everyday. And I hate to see them go through that. Society has definitely changed. What happened to that childish fun? These days young girls are doing more then just holding hands. What happened to dating? what happened to the limits? I see young kids experiencing emotions they know nothing about, is it because their not ready?
Some people fall in love with the idea of falling in love. That's when it gets complicated. How do we ever really know the difference. Listen to this song
This says everything when you listen to the lyrics.
If we all look at the fine print instead of just looking at the image in front of us, things might be allot different. Learn to know a person before you date them. Learn to love your self. When we were kids we believed that everything was possible. We believe in dreams. We believe in no enemy's. We feared adults, monsters and we battled our siblings for who was better at this, or who was better at that.
But then we become teenagers. We start to see a world beyond fairy tales and tinker toys. We want to grow up soo fast we skip the biggest step of all. Which is learning who we are. As teenagers our body's are constantly changing. We see people who are soo cool and we want to be them and have what they have. Instead of looking at who we are, we look at them, But why?
Growing up I wanted to be soo cool. I dressed to impress. I kept quiet and let them talk. What I had to say, wasn't good enough. Until one day I woke up and saw a stranger looking back at me in the mirror. I even looked at an old picture, wearing a short pink skirt with black crap all over my eyes. Why did my parents let me out of the house like that. I look like a damn raccoon. I didn't like that and I didn't like keeping my mouth shut.
I'm funny, I'm smart and if that isn't good enough then oh well. I wasn't going to waist my time, I had wasted enough. So that day I took a break. I started to dress like a lady and I wore mascara if none at all. More people started to comment me on my looks and that made me happy. I put my mind into my new high school and I became more independent then I ever thought I could be. I wasn't dating and I was happy. I dated here and there, but the relationships never lasted because I was scared to be with just one person. I wasn't ready to tie myself down and I thought that was what relationships were like at my age. They were a mess. So I stopped dating. I hung out with boys just for their company. Along the way I started to fall for my best, best friend, he didn't know that at the time. I kept quiet, I didn't want him to turn into a complete stranger. So I ran away from it. Yeah I cried, but by the end of the day things were alright because I still had a friend on my side.
Things started to change a few years ago. I got back into the dating scene. Only this time I knew what I wanted and what I didn't. I knew my dreams and I my mind was clear. School was out and it was my time to have some fun. I met some pretty great guys along the way. Some of them left and some stayed. Oh well big deal they left me. Yeah I cried. And I didn't move to the next guy right away. I took my sweet time because it was my life and I had no reason to rush.
I learned from each relationship. I learned to not love right away or fall head over heels for a guy that says they love you within hours of holding hands in public for the first time. I learned guys that might act like our friend, might not actually be our friend. He played me quite well. After that happened, I swore to never let that happen again. So I moved on, only to find myself yet again.
Now I finally see why all those other guys didn't make the cut. I was meant for someone better. My life is going great right now. Yeah I have a boy friend. He treats me like every girl should be treated. I feel like a princess in his arms. I have learned that words aren't everything unless your writing a long story like this. I have learned to speak up for how I am feeling. If I am pissed at him, he knows. If I am happy, he knows. I could talk about him all day. And I could talk about my self a whole lot more. LOL
If I have done one thing right in my life its to ask God for help and keep him in my life. A few weeks ago I was loosing a war with myself. I was mad all the time and I didn't know why. I blamed my family, I blamed my friends, I blamed my boy friend for something they had no part of. When all along I should have been blaming myself. I took my eyes completely off God. And I started to loose it. I wasn't as happy. I wasn't enjoying my life. I looked at the little things all the time. Why couldn't they be like this or that or this or that. I drove myself crazy. Until one day I felt alone. And I saw God in a tiny section of my heart. I was slowly walking away from him. I know it sounds silly but I seriously couldn't do it with out him in my daily life. I had a nice long talk with him and I couldn't believe how a few minutes of scripture and listening to gospel music made my day a whole lot better. I was filled with his light and glory once again. I got back on track. Things have been going great, I haven't taken my eyes off of him ever since.
So now a thousand words later and onto the initial reason why I wrote this. If your a teenager who is looking for Love I want you to take a good look at yourself and see who you are. I want you to ask yourself are you proud of who you are, are you proud of what you are becoming?
There is love out there, but we need to love our selves first and for-most. If you don't love yourself for the quiet,or outgoing, or spontaneous, or goofy person you might be, then how do you expect someone else to? Are your goals for the future safe. Don't let another person take your focus off of what you want your life to be like.
Respect yourself!
Don't let those idiots walk all over you. Because eventually they will leave you and they sure as hell wont care if you get back up or not.
Take a chance on someone who is willing to take a chance on you. If your not a priority in there life, then don't let them be one in yours.
Don't change to fit their check list.
Play hard to get and put yourself first.
"I hope this helps. And I would love to hear feed back."
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